This post is going to talk about some things that I'm currently dealing with both good and bad. So if you're looking for book suggestions or a review, go ahead and come on back later.
Okay so here's a little background on what I'm about to discuss. Please note that there could be some serious self-pity below.
When I was going into 6th grade, my summer was definitely an eye-opener. Now I'm not sure if I hit puberty while I wasn't paying attention then BOOM! there I am standing in the mirror trying to figure out what the hell all those spots/dots on my back were. That led my parents and I to go see a doctor about what was going on. I was one of the
As an adult, I made the decision to look into what I could do about the scars/acne. I figured with the way technology and medicine has advanced, there might be a miracle or an idea that might work. On my own, I went to a dermatologist. That doctor prescribed me Accutane and told me I had a decision to make. If you've never heard of Accutane, it's scary stuff. It was an offer to me when I was younger but I couldn't handle making that decision at that age. Making the decision to take this medicine involves signing a contract, reading an actual book about what could happen while taking the medicine. It also requires any female to utilize two separate forms of birth control. Each month, there are tests run, questions answered, and if you don't pick of the prescription in the 7 days from the day of the blood tests; all must be repeated. So, I took a few days to think about it, talked with Cisco about it because let's face it...it's important for him to be a part of. Taking this medicine means that no children while on the medicine, and no children for at least two months after finishing the medicine. So depending on the length of time I take the medicine, it could cut into our lives. Not that we're looking for children but life does change and things get re-prioritized. I decided to take the medicine. From September until about early February, I was good to go on the medicine. Dermatologists usually prescribe it in the winter/colder months because the medicine is actually supposed to alter your DNA in that it closes your pores and slows the production of substances in your body that cause acne and blemishes. It completely reduces oil and sweating actually slows and in some cases halts altogether. I started on an average dose every other day then moved to daily and then a higher dosage for the first 6 months. It was an uncomfortable time because of the dryness of my skin and hair but it definitely worked. My face is clearer than it has ever been, not that it was every truly horrid in the first place. Unfortunately, the medicine focused solely on my face (guess I didn't realize how bad my face was) and only minutely on my chest/back/shoulders. My doctor decided that I needed more time on the medicine. Sadly, at that point, my liver enzymes and levels were all over the place unhealthy. I had to go off of the medicine for about a month or two until my levels returned to normal.
During this month or two break, I started going to the gym daily. I think having a clearer face gave me more motivation to really go out and change my life. If I'm going to make one drastic change, why not do an overall drastic change. Lose weight/kill acne/demolish scars/etc. and it was going well! I zumba three times a week, I lift weights,
I decided to take the day off on Tuesday to
Enough of that...sometimes it just helps me to write it all out. One of these days I'll get back to writing and see if I still have those writing chops (if I had any before) but for now, I'll stick with prose and writing about what's really going on with me. It helps to be able to write exactly what I'm thinking instead of figuring out how exactly to articulate it verbally. Sometimes the written word is all you need.
Now, on to more FUN topics! We're getting a puppy this weekend!! We're naming her Harley Quinn after the character in Batman. She's a 4 month old, 25lb, German Shepherd mix and we hope to meet her, lover her and pick her up on Saturday before Laila's party. We went out and bought a dog bed, toys, crate, food, water/food bowls/stand, leash and other miscellaneous things that go with getting a dog. I'm really excited and hope that she gets along with my furballs at home.
On that note, I'm going to say thanks for reading all of that and hopefully it's a little more insight into my world than you had before. I tried to smash the boring/frustrating parts between two fun parts of books and puppies but sometimes, it doesn't really matter either way.
I leave with one of my favorite quotes from a book (and one I've been quoting a lot lately...)
"I never thought I would need bravery in the small moments of my life. I do."
Tris in Veronica Roth's Divergent